2/16/17 Having trouble with my past once again

I've been doing a lot of thinking wondering why my parents my biological parents at that gave me up was I really incest what was my mom just a young whore it was said I had an older sister I don't remember her name but it was said the there were two siblings between me and my younger brother whom three years apart from me now I sit here thinking what if my father doesn't know about me but then again what if what DHHR was told is the truth the fact what they were told is true? That again, what if she slept around and got pregnant and lied on her dad? What if her dad was framed and because of her lie she told her dad now does time for her lie? Or what if she is telling the truth? There is only one way to find out, DNA testing. Am I ready to face what the truth could reveal?

Interesting...

So today was very interesting. Im happy because I seen my hubby today even though it was a brief moment...

It's all good seeing my husband's smile..makes me happy!! So Electrical Outage this evening...ugh...lights went out about 4:30 pm and came back on at 9:30 pm..wow...Just when Im about to fall asleep....welp thats all for now tnt God Bless

Hey everybody how you doing

So today was a good day I did laundry I don't want Treehouse Masters slept fed  and watered my cat outside I like this talk-to-text thing but it doesn't do proper grammar which sucks well my husband got thrown out of the place he was living which is bull s*** that's okay Karma will get them I need a place to live nobody will be better for them to turn to... hahaha. G2g...tnt God bless

My life to the this day

So I got myself a new cat her name is Millie she is a beautiful cat I love her so much however she has fleas really bad and her fur it's starting to fall off because of the flea infestation I'm hoping I can come up with the money for her to go to the vet I can't stand to see my baby kitten the digging this way I am so thankful that I found a church to go to Arlington Christian Apostolic Church it's the church I belong to very nice people God Spirit just flows freely I've never been in a church like that wow so on another note between 2014 and 15 I end up having to give up my rights of my babies all four of them the doc told me to go to the hospital multiple different times for psychiatric help however it is 2016 and I am doing very well I have been taking my meds I am on Zoloft Buspur and Depakote I'm doing this new talk-to-text thing on my phone oh yeah I got a new phone thanks to my hubby so on a side note my hubby and I are doing much better we are getting along much better since we started going to the Christian Apostolic Church in Arlington this talk-to-text app on my phone work for the good though keep in mind I do have a speech impairment I have a hard time getting my words out properly so this summer I got to spend time with my niece and nephews I enjoyed that getting to go to the pool apparently a neighbor that lives right up the road from my mom's we ended up meeting at the bridgeport pool that Beth took me and Charlie and her kids there nice right now I have a cat padding my shirt as if she would be making a nest for her to go to sleep I also got to go to Ohio to my uncle's work picnic at tuscora Park that was fun I have to admit I have a good time Bella also have a kitten her name is Rosie however my kitten is black and white with a little bit of reddish cast to her coat Bella's cat is black white with the mix of Grey most beautiful cats I should say kittens rotten as heck so I'm living at my moms the hubby is living with a friend of ours other than that Life is Peachy everybody have a great day and just for the record peanut just turned 9 Bella will be 9 December 7th of this year my oh my how time has flown well that's all I gotta say everybody have a great day God bless TNT

7/15/16

Today, I have done laundry non stop and after get done doing this blog, I'm gonna do the bathroom, scoop the liter box, organize the hubby and I's room. Am getting hungry but I don't know what to eat.  We have all kinds of food, it's just my body is being picky...

Apparently, we're supposed to get snow. My mom doesn't remember snow happening in the month of May. Gonna do dishes and finish laundry as well as folding it. Look for me on YouTube.com

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Have wonderful day!!

question?? 5/15/16

" Wow, today went sour!! I want to leave but in the same sense I don't. Why? Maybe it's because I love him with all my heart. I don't like his actions! He is controlling though he says different. That's telling me he doesn't see it, however everyone else doees! I can tell he loves me, he show it in his own way! I show my love completely different. We have lots of good memories. Sydney pick up and we dropped off applications, Charlie and I went to take a nap. We didn't wake up til 8 pm!" This was orignally written on 4/8/16.


So, my question is this, Why do I question myself? Why do I always say "I want to leave." I still stay. Why do I say that? Is it because I'm mad? Do I really want to leave? or Am I just angry that I say what I don't mean?


My answer, I love my husband with all my heart, why I question myself, I'm unsure if I chose the right path or not, wondering if I should have went with a man named MLM or my husband. I believe I'm happy with him because we have a lot in common and we do get along great but "When it rains, it pours." I say I want to leave but I don't and that's why. I'm mad and/or very angry at that point in time when I say what I say.

what does you lifeline show?? 5/14/16

Add cYou have an inflexible nature. Your somewhat serious nature makes life difficult for you at times. At times, problems come later on in your life because you did not address them at first. A change in attitude will help you. You are likely to have some phases of ill health in your life. You have strong will power. Your body will show more resistance in times of ill health. You are more brainy than brawny. There were some restrictions on you in your childhood in school/home. You may face times of trials and tribulations during the course of your life. 

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